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Name: Mandy
Birthday: 7/23/1985
Gender: Female
Interests: running, music, lifting, anything active or outside, my sisters, and movies...
Expertise: being a student, yep I've had plenty of practice at that.
Occupation: Student
Industry: Engineering
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Member Since:
5/21/2004
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| I got 11th at the DI meet yesterday... and I set a new school record I haven't touched since I was a sophomore... yeah... I ran a 4:49.63 1500 yesterday... and it didn't even hurt that badly... yep... i'm still enjoying it... So much for not drinking... it's working for me... | | |
| So... as I face the fact that in 7 weeks i will no longer be a college student, I find myself needing to look for things to look forward to in my after-school life, since i have a feeling looking toward the next break won't work since they will be much fewer and farther between. I also have a feeling that my weekends might be a more dull since I am leaving my amazing friends at rose to have a life of my own. Ok... so the point of this isn't to be sad... my writing always seems to wander off on odd paths before I have to redirect it to the point... ...the point is really that I've also got a lot to look forward to, like I'm actually going to have time to read and draw/paint again... the prospect of these activities excites me a lot... I'm glad I came to rose, but I feel like since I've been here its sucked the variety and emotion from me. It's all been science and cold, hard facts. I'm looking forward to getting back to the emotion I used to have. I used to be able to draw exactly what I was feeling, right now i don't think I would know where to begin. I am also looking forward to a good book that is going to pull tears of joy or even sorrow out of me, instead of only tears of bordem... these are the things that right now make me want to graduate... | | |
| go to hell...so I can have my life back! For the last 11 quarters, I've not drank the night before a workout, I've gotten to bed on time as often as possible, and I've gotten my shit done... well that stopped at the beginning of the quarter... now I'm enjoying my life. But then coach comes up with this big speech about how inorder to compete we need to "live right", including not partyin so much... well, personally i'm still running well so maybe I'll just try not to party in front of so many underclassmen, and not encourage them... or maybe I'll say I need to fit more of college into the last 10 weeks that I skipped while I was running my ass off and taking care of everone else... ...well, as long as I keep lovin it... who else really matters? Yes, at this point I am going to be selfish and make my decisions based on what I want... hell yeah! | | |
| | *~* Wings or Roots? *~*Every time I've gone home this year, all I've done is be with my family. While everyone else reforms bonds with their High School friends, I sit at home and watch TV while my parent's sleep. It doesn't really bother me most of the time, but for some reason this past break it got to me. I really do miss some of the people I used to hang out with. I miss having a past that goes farther than < 3 years with someone. I don't miss everyone, but I really wish I could see a few. I know that a certain someone would remind me of the "dangers" of seeing anyone from home, but this break I was really missing my old friends. I gave them up for a really amazing someone, but it is frusterating that I know his friends from high school about 10 times better than I know my own now. This is what I've been thinking the last few weeks, and I know I have to decide if I want to keep on flying away from home. I'm not really scared to be a drifter, it kind of suites my personality just fine. I just really like hearing the songs that we used to listen to in high school and wish I was back there and could change a few things to make them better, but I can't. since I know I can't I choose wings over roots... I always liked the dreams where I flew away best anyway. |
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| If I can't be happy... I'm just going to fake it... ...hopefully this mood goes away soon... | | |
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